Dear Mom, I went to the fair...

Dear Mom,
I went to the fair today. So many times I thought about you. You used to ride the rides with me when I was little. You used to eat fair food with me. We used to go look at the animals together. We checked out the craft booths together. There was a double ferris wheel there today. I remember riding that with you. You loved it. I don't know why because you weren't a fan of heights. Dear Mom, I missed you today.

Andrew and I hung up a new curtain rod and took down the blinds over the sliding glass door last night. You'd like it. It looks warmer- more inviting. I wanted to send you a picture. Dear Mom, I missed you last night.

Yesterday afternoon Michelle and Faryn were over. Faryn took a really long nap on my bed. Michelle and I went up to the store and got some stuff to make Apple dumplings. They were so good. I wanted to send you the recipe because you'd love them. Dear Mom, I missed you yesterday afternoon.

I think this is going to be a theme of my life from now on. I can't imagine a time when I won't miss you. Andrew said to write you a letter on here and it might help. I'm not sure if it helps but it gets it out of my head some, this need to tell you things.

So dear mom, I love you. I miss you. I don't really know how I'm getting along without you. But I'm just hanging on and pulling myself forward as best as I can. I know if you could you'd be giving me words of wisdom. You'd tell me that you love me. So I'm just going to try to hear those words in my head and keep pushing through. Just keep my head above the water.

Love always and forever,
Me